ana.. yepp.. that's my name.. however, i have a variety of different nicknames.. haha.. you can call me 'nananee' if you like. i doubt that, however. wentz (bea) calls me 'watkins'. if you're not her, you probably aren't allowed to call me that. char calls me 'ananikole smithen' or basically, just 'smithen' for short. i have ian david carslick watkins as my husband.. i have been breathing for 16 years now. i started doing that on the 7th of february in the year of 1991 (do the math). i am currently a student of QCSHS and i'm a senior. i <3 chocolates, and i have a terrible fear of heights. i am weird, spontaneous and i am a listener. i have always been misunderstood and i am now philophobic thanks to someone. as with all scientians, i am a certified crammer. i love watching movies and i cannot live without music. music is my life. i am a pyrofreak and a water-baby rolled into one. i love stars, butterflies and starbucks. you may find me sipping caramel frapuccino (cream based) in a venti cup during weekdays or so. i ship draco/hermione fanfics. i believe that shopping is <3. i am also a soldier of the MCRmy. i am a self-proclaimed vampire (in a way).. i'd say that that's all for now. i'll update sometime soon.. –ania- Sunday, September 10, 2006
Grabe! Ewan ko ba kung anong nangyari kahapon, basta... hindi ko malilimutan ang September 9, 2006Sobrang depressed ako kahapon! Nung simula naman ng araw, okay lang ako... Pero pagdating ng gabi bago ako matulog, umiiyak na ako! Siguro kasi, kahapon ko lang naramdaman.
Kahapon ko lang naramdaman yung sakit. Antagal naman nang nangyari pero, kahapon talaga.. hindi ko na siguro nakayanan kaya, ayun. Kung sa bagay, alam ko naman talaga na masakit yun, hindi ko lang inakala na ganun pala kasakit. Antagal kong itinago yun, hindi ko ipinapakita, hindi ko ipinapahalata... Pero dumarating din naman ang araw na hindi mo na kinakayanan, diba? Dumating yung araw na yun kahapon. Buti na lang may kausap ako, may nakakaintindi sa nararamdaman ko. (Salamat talaga sa time mo kahapon ah)
Basta ayun... Kaya ngayon, eto ako, nakaupo sa harap ng computer. Nasasaktan. Umiiyak sa loob. Nagpapakasenti. Hindi na talaga maaayos ang buhay ko. Forever doomed na ako sa ganitong klaseng buhay. Eto lang talaga ang nakatadhana saken (naks, ayan nanaman... nagdadrama)... Palagi na lang akong umiiyak, kahit ganun, hindi parin ako nasanay.
Sorry kung andrama nitong post na 'to. Pero kailangan ko lang talaga ilabas eh.. Kaya ngayon, eto ako... nakikinig sa iba-ibang kanta na sa kasalukuyan eh nakakarelate ako. Ayoko na ng ganitong buhay...
-save me from the nothing I've become-